Monthly Archives: March 2012
I haven’t posted in a while, if your an avid reader (which I’m not sure I really have any regulars besides Trisha 😉 BECAUSE NOT MANY OTHERS OF YOU CHIME IN WITH YOUR THOUGHTS!!! – or you are just creeping… which is cool either way…anyway…) I apologize for being incognito for a while. I’ve got this new thing called a job. Crazy, I know, but it’s just a part time thing right now, seeing as I no longer have the ability to commit to anything (stop rolling your eyes Trisha, and hey by the way… are the dishes put away? Because I’ll be back around 12:30ish and I’ll be ready to finish the rest…. currency bitch…)
Sorry, the job. I’m not making any initial judgments until after next week. It’s too hard to tell this early in the game, but the people I work for are very nice and it’s a challenge, especially since it’s in an area which I have no experience or much knowledge of.
The downside is I feel like I haven’t seen my kids or spent any quality time with them for ages. Although next week is spring break so I will be able to spend Monday and Tuesday with them before going back to work Wednesday. Ahhh, the joys of working life… We will see… be back later…
I hate having to make decisions. It can be as simple as what to eat for dinner, or as complicated as what do I want to do with my life, I can’t make a solid decision to save my soul. Hindsight being 20/20 I realize this was probably also a key problem in my past failing marriage as well. Neither of us could make a decision, or else neither of us cared enough to have to make it… I was in the process of trying to decide if I should make a pretty solid transition this week. I always hesitate because I worry incessantly that I will make the wrong decision. I would be much happier allowing others to make decisions for me, provided they are the choices I would want to have made myself. I’m just never brave enough to make those choices myself… besides, then if anything goes wrong, the blame is on them…right?
Anyway, as I was in the process of making a decision this week, I found myself back in the good old junior high days of asking the Magic 8 Ball what decision I should make (However, now the Magic 8 Ball is an app on my phone, but the same concept really, right?). It seemed rational at the time. Yet, the Magic 8 Ball kept telling me what I didn’t want to hear… “It is decidedly so. It is certain. Yes.” So I did a little experimenting and asked it a few other questions, like, “should I dye my hair hot pink”… or “should I live in a van down by the river”. I made a startling discovery. No matter what I ask the Magic 8 Ball it gives a positive response. If I asked it, “Should I give up all of my worldly possessions and become a nun,” it would most certainly say “Signs point to yes”.
Lesson learned: Magic 8 Balls toy with your life… and then laugh in your face. Just kidding, the real lesson learned here is don’t depend on the Magic 8 Ball to make your decisions or you could end up dressed like a clown, joining a circus. Point taken Magic 8 Ball, point taken…